It's amazing how far you can get in life and not realize how truly blessed you are. So many people take days for granted, or complain about their lives. You're breathing, you have all the opportunities in the world open to you, and no matter who you are there is atleast one person in your life who loves you. So what do you have to complain about? Taking one day for granted is a mistake because you won't ever get that day back. Life is whatever you make it into, so if it isn't up to par you have to get it there or else you won't ever be satisfied.
I'm in love with my life, because I choose to be. I find happiness in the littlest things because I can. And I follow my heart because it always knows what's right for me. So many people go about life saying, "I have to go to work, I have to go to school. You don't HAVE to do those things, you get to. You get reward out of all of that stuff, you have a job? Awesome. You have money to pay for things you want. You go to school? You get to learn new things and become more well rounded. So there is no point in complaining cause no matter what you do, you can only gain from it.
If you take life and it's opportunities for granted, you won't ever get to the beauty of it. I've learned that unless I do what my heart tells me to do, I'm going to live with regret knowing I passed up what I truly wanted. I want to do something good, something people remember me for when i'm gone. This life is just a journey, half the fun is getting to where you always wanted to be. I refuse to wake up at age 85 and look back thinking what if.. I want to look back and be proud, and know I made a difference, and I did just what I always set out to do.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
When one door closes, another opens.
Take risks: if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise. ~Author Unknown
This quote has been on my mind a lot recently. I have always been a quitter. Everything I start I end up giving up on once it gets tough. While it isn't the easiest thing to admit, especially to myself..it's true. When I start to think back, i realize the reason I have quit or given up is always the same. Fear. I'm the kind of person who doesn't deal well with failure. But by not giving something my all, and simply letting it defeat me, it is probably the biggest failure I can bring upon myself.
I definitely think I took longer to grow up than most people my age, I made big mistakes and had big setbacks. But honestly, I don't regret a thing. I learned from those mistakes, and I grew from them. I learned that if you want something in life you can't just wait around for it. YOU have to make it happen. If you don't go after what you want and work hard at it, you don't deserve it.
I don't know why I struggle with failure, failure is just a way of learning. I think my whole life I tried to live for other people. I tried to do what someone else always thought was best for me. I wanted to make everyone proud. What I didn't realize is that this is my life. I'm not going to be happy if I always try to do what someone else expects of me. It's more what I expect of myself, and what I want in life. I finally think I know what that is. And i'm ready to be a go-getter and go after it.
I think at the end of the day, everyone just wants to be successful. I'm capable, i'm smart, i'm tough, i'm a good person. I deserve to be successful, and be happy in life. That is exactly what I am going to aim to do, no matter how much it scares me. Fear is just something within yourself, that tries to hold you back. Being fearless is never letting that fear affect you or the opportunities you're given in this life. You can't live life always backing down. You have to step up to the plate, and take each day as it comes with the best confidence you can find in yourself. Quitting should never be an option.
This quote has been on my mind a lot recently. I have always been a quitter. Everything I start I end up giving up on once it gets tough. While it isn't the easiest thing to admit, especially to myself..it's true. When I start to think back, i realize the reason I have quit or given up is always the same. Fear. I'm the kind of person who doesn't deal well with failure. But by not giving something my all, and simply letting it defeat me, it is probably the biggest failure I can bring upon myself.
I definitely think I took longer to grow up than most people my age, I made big mistakes and had big setbacks. But honestly, I don't regret a thing. I learned from those mistakes, and I grew from them. I learned that if you want something in life you can't just wait around for it. YOU have to make it happen. If you don't go after what you want and work hard at it, you don't deserve it.
I don't know why I struggle with failure, failure is just a way of learning. I think my whole life I tried to live for other people. I tried to do what someone else always thought was best for me. I wanted to make everyone proud. What I didn't realize is that this is my life. I'm not going to be happy if I always try to do what someone else expects of me. It's more what I expect of myself, and what I want in life. I finally think I know what that is. And i'm ready to be a go-getter and go after it.
I think at the end of the day, everyone just wants to be successful. I'm capable, i'm smart, i'm tough, i'm a good person. I deserve to be successful, and be happy in life. That is exactly what I am going to aim to do, no matter how much it scares me. Fear is just something within yourself, that tries to hold you back. Being fearless is never letting that fear affect you or the opportunities you're given in this life. You can't live life always backing down. You have to step up to the plate, and take each day as it comes with the best confidence you can find in yourself. Quitting should never be an option.
Friday, April 29, 2011
True Love Waits
So, one of my best friends has a blog, and while I may not be the best at it, I am in love with writing. I think getting my feelings written down somewhere would help me a lot. So I decided it might be a good idea. Everything in my life is really beginning to change so I thought it would be cool to document and be able to look back. Recently my boyfriend left on deployment in the Marines, and i won't sugar coat it..it's tough. I didn't intend to fall for Chase, and i had no idea I would meet someone so amazing and have to say goodbye so soon. I know a lot of people would say we're being irrational, that we're too young. But I can tell you one thing. I have never been so completely certain about anything in my life. I went through some very unhealthy relationships before I met my marine. One inparticular, the boy I never truly got over until recently. It was a day to day sort of thing, does he care today? Will he still care tomorrow? Deep down I knew who I wanted, and for some reason I honestly thought I could change him into that person. I learned you can't make someone into who you want them to be. If someone treats you bad, don't expect it to change. Once things went even more downhill, I gave up. That's when Chase walked into my life. We both find it so weird that we had a lot of the same friends, went to the same school, but never once noticed eachother. Call it what you want, but we like to call it fate.
Goodbyes are never easy. So we didn't say goodbye. See you soon sounds so much better. It has been a month now. Somedays it seems so much longer though. So, I made myself a goal to do one thing for myself at the end of each month. One month it may be getting my hair done, another my nails or a new outfit. I figure this way I have something short term to look forward to each month he is gone. It will keep my mind off how long I have left because I will be excited for the end of the month to come, and it will make me look good for when he get's back home. Win win situation right? I also really look forward to the phone calls every weekend. Usually he will call around 1 and we don't hang up til 4 or 5 in the morning my time. The call goes by so quickly though, and we can talk about nothing at all and it's still my favorite conversation I have ever had.
When I think ahead, I get really worried. With a marine you have no idea where they are going to be in the future because it depends on the world, and what is going on in that period of time. Thinking about Chase ever going into battle scares me to death, these men come close to danger all the time. We were talking about it last night and it came to me that every marine that falls, is someones son, someones boyfriend, someones husband, cousin, best friend, grandfather.. What if it was MY boyfriend? HIS father's son, HIS sister's brother. I can't even imagine what marines go through, they have the hardest job in the world. I look up to Chase so much. And the fact that he is doing what he is, and at the end of the day he is more concerned about my day, and what i'm feeling. I am the luckiest girl in the world. I love my marine, he is my everything. Which is why i'm here, waiting. He is worth the wait.
Goodbyes are never easy. So we didn't say goodbye. See you soon sounds so much better. It has been a month now. Somedays it seems so much longer though. So, I made myself a goal to do one thing for myself at the end of each month. One month it may be getting my hair done, another my nails or a new outfit. I figure this way I have something short term to look forward to each month he is gone. It will keep my mind off how long I have left because I will be excited for the end of the month to come, and it will make me look good for when he get's back home. Win win situation right? I also really look forward to the phone calls every weekend. Usually he will call around 1 and we don't hang up til 4 or 5 in the morning my time. The call goes by so quickly though, and we can talk about nothing at all and it's still my favorite conversation I have ever had.
When I think ahead, I get really worried. With a marine you have no idea where they are going to be in the future because it depends on the world, and what is going on in that period of time. Thinking about Chase ever going into battle scares me to death, these men come close to danger all the time. We were talking about it last night and it came to me that every marine that falls, is someones son, someones boyfriend, someones husband, cousin, best friend, grandfather.. What if it was MY boyfriend? HIS father's son, HIS sister's brother. I can't even imagine what marines go through, they have the hardest job in the world. I look up to Chase so much. And the fact that he is doing what he is, and at the end of the day he is more concerned about my day, and what i'm feeling. I am the luckiest girl in the world. I love my marine, he is my everything. Which is why i'm here, waiting. He is worth the wait.
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